Not always plain sailing.

Mr P and I have been together for over ten years. For the most part of it we are like a couple of love struck teenagers, but sometimes it can feel far from that. Now we never really argue, funny really like that. We tend to discuss things and if we don't agree we both go "fine!" but always apologise soon after. We are so close and I love that. The problem for me starts with if Mr P is not really feeling himself. He tends to go really quiet and distant. I'm the opposite, if i'm not feeling myself, I get really needy.

I'm going through a faze like that now.
It all started a few weeks ago. We were really loved up having lovely cuddles, great sex and I felt so close to him as I would massage or shower him. There is something very intimate about it.
I had asked him for a massage, well ok i been nagging for a bit :D but we never seem to have the time. The sexual attention towards me has subsided since I have not been instigating things.
Mr P does have a lot on his plate at the moment, he's so busy with work and worrying about his family. I feel that he has sort of sunk away from me. The more distant he gets though, the more I feel I need him. This gets into a vicious circle, then I end up feeling rejected, unloved and empty.
I know I worry to much, but I'm neurotic that he doesn't love me any more. Has he gone off me, does he like someone else. I have a huge list of what if's.

I know you are thinking why don't I talk to him. I have though. He assured me he loves me, just he is really busy ect. I wasn't left feeling any better though.
I sometimes think the phrase 'men are from mars, women are from venus' is so bloody right on times.

I know it will pass and we wil be best friends and lovers again, but for now, I will wait for him with an aching heart.

We are soulmates and life is never plain sailing.